One year ago today I made the decision to break up with alcohol.
Ironically, part of this decision was because of the increased risk (10%) of breast cancer.
CLEARLY, that didn't work out for me!!
I have been working on becoming the best version of myself physically and mentally.
Alcohol has not been my friend.
I am not going to go into detail here but trust when I say this needed to happen.
I am MUCH happier today than I was one year ago.
I firmly believe this helped me when I was diagnosed with breast cancer in February.
I never once wanted to have a drink, even after diagnosis.
God spoke to me and told me I would be ok.
I believed Him.
So far the bc is at bay and I am NED (no evidence of disease).
I'm not sure I would have heard this as clearly if I had not been AF.
Has it been easy?
Most of the time it was, actually.
Once I make up my mind and know my decision is the right one, yes.
Most of the time, anyway.
I still think it would be great to have a glass of wine now and then but then I remember.
I remember how it made me feel.
I remember not remembering.
I remember the disappointment on my family's faces.
I remember feeling like I failed, myself and everyone else.
SO, I refrain.
I'm happy to do this for the BIG payoff!
I am happy to do this for my health, both physical and mental.
I am happy to do this for MYSELF!
Because at the end of the day, it is for myself that I came to this decision.
So raise a glass of whatever you like and help me celebrate
ONE YEAR ALCOHOL FREE!!
I am free!
Next post will be back to quilty content, promise.