Monday, January 27, 2014

Fabric Finds and My LIfe

I went to GR to see my dad in the hospital over the weekend.  
We thought he was going to be discharged on Sat but it is not going to happen until today.  
He is going to have to have a nurse employed when he returns to his apt.  
We brought his cat home with us. 
 I am at a crossroads, I fear.
I'm not sure how to proceed and the fear is paralyzing. 
 I feel like he gets worse with every visit to the hospital. 
 I think for now, if I can get a nurse to visit him, he can stay where he is...for now. 
 It won't last long.  
His memory is much worse than even a week ago. 
 I am looking into nursing homes while also considering taking him into my own home. 
 I am terrified of both options.  
What's wrong with me??  
This is not normally who I am!  
That's all I am going to say for now.  
Breathing deeply and spending time investigating, that's the job of the minute.

On to other things.  I picked up some of the amazing Britten Number fabric from IKEA and it is available at Crazy Quilt Girl's online fabric shop.  It is quite a large print.  It makes a fabulous back as it is 59" wide!  I LOVE this fabric so much.  If you want any you better hurry up before I buy it all up!

 I also found some older Lizzy House Red Letter Day fabrics and 
am selling them $12/yard shipped or $9/yard pick up.
I have 1 yard of this available.

I have 2 yards of this one available.

I am also selling some Innocent Crush Shattered by Anna Maria Horner $13/yard shipped
 or $10 local pick up. 
 I have 2 yards of this available.  

It was once again a blizzard while we were out of town.  
We had to dig out one of my dad's cars and get it started.  
Still couldn't move it into the garage as it was stuck to the ground.  
That's hubby doing the digging out!

Photos from the front yard at my dad's house.  
Look at the neighbor's mailbox!

We had to bring our snow blower so we could actually get into the driveway to get into the house!

Beautiful but messy!

This was how driving home was too.



Dolores said...

Having my mom in a nursing home, though it was a hard decision, is such a relief. Whatever your decision, visit several nursing homes - just in case. There are tours you can take. The staff at the one my mom is in are just so nice and I know that my mom is getting the care she needs. I get phone calls from the staff if she has a skin tear or falls. My mind is at peace.

Betty Woodlee said...

Prayers for you! May you find peace!

Jenny said...

thinking about you Pam. tough decisions...

Annemiek said...

There's nothing wrong with you.. I've been there, done that with my dad; an emotional rollercoaster.And every single thought that goes to your head (the good ánd the bad!) is normal.
Just hang on, and take each day as it comes. That's all you can do.

sophie said...

Hang in there, you will find your way to the right answer for doing what's best for you and your dad. Change is hard. Watching our parents age and fail is HARD. Don't beat yourself up because it's hard for you. Of course it is! Take care. You are in my thoughts and prayers (and those of many others).

Cindy said...

You are going through one of the hardest times in our lives--watching our parents going towards the end of their lives. Unfortunately, we can't help you other than to "listen" to your story. I'm here, willing to listen, been through it twice. Take each day as it is, find joy in something every day, pray, and you will make it through. Remember that at the end of this journey, he goes home, and someday you'll see him again.

Mrs. Goodneedle said...

Prayers for you during this harrowing turn of events with your Dad, know that there's nothing wrong with YOU. This is one huge decision that impacts so many people that you love, I am praying for peace and an agreeable, decisive answer. Hugs to you, Pam, I am so sorry you're going through this.

roccagal said...

Nothing is easy when making a decision like this!
Know that there is nothing wrong with you, feeling what you are feeling -good bad and ugly! IT IS terrifying! Whatever you decide will be the best choice!
Sending out lots of luv and good thoughts!
Wish i could do more to help!
Hugs S

Gretchen said...

Thinking of you and your difficult decisions & sending hugs. This winter has been a doozy in Michigan--reminds me of when I was a kid in the 1970s. Stay warm & safe! said...

I am sorry you have such a difficult decision ahead of you. Prayers for you and your decision, and the peace which will come with it once it is made. Be careful traveling it has not been safe as of late.

Sara said...

Praying that you will find the answers you need to hear soon Pam.

Anna said...

They say our dreams are just on the other side of our fears...but when the fears are about our parents...we put our dreams on hold. Don't rush any decision...don't rush any conversation...sometime the answer lies in the silence. hugs.

rubyslipperz1052 said...

I'msad...and sorry about the situation with your Dad. I hope that solutions or the path to take...becomes more clear. And, that what you end up having to will have the strength to get through it. =(


Michele said...

Such big changes in your life has got to be really scary but I know that you will do what is best for both you and him. Big hugs.

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